Done with life.

[JustUseless]

I just cannot bear being around him, I feel disgusted by him in every possible way. I cannot believe I was fooled by such a horrible and nasty person. We are worlds apart, we have absolutely nothing in common apart from our upbringing (single parent families).

I hate my life and I dont think I will ever be happy. everyday is a mental struggle, I dont know what his mood is like, I feel trapped in the house most days, when I do go out, all it takes is a call or text from him ruin it. Over the past 5 years he has done so much to me that I think I'm starting to block stuff out. He has blocked all his family so no one knows what his life is like or what mine is like.

I have no one apart from my amazing little boy, he is my life.

What about family OP or friends? Anyone you can confide in?

Do you want practical help or emotional support from us?

I think you'll find a lot of the misery will go away when you leave and just have yourself to deal with.

Is there a reason why you can't leave? Do you have any family How? How old is your son?

You are not useless. You are the most important person in your son's world, and you are a good decent person.

There are routes out, if you want out.

Hi OP,

We're so sorry you're feeling this way.

We can see that you're getting some good advice and support from other Mumsnetters, but we just wanted to add some links to organisations which may be able to give you some help in real life too.

First of all, here's a link to our Mental Health resources. There are many organisations listed which can provide you with some support. If you're feeling very low, you can contact the Samaritans, any time, by emailing [email protected] or by calling 116 123.

You can also get help from a text service called Shout 85258. Its trained volunteers are available all hours of the day and night to support you. Shout is a free, confidential, anonymous service for anyone in the UK and it won't appear on your phone bill.

We'd also like to point you in the direction of Women's Aid. Their 24-hour helpline number is 0808 2000 247, and they have an online online chat support service which operates 8am - 6pm weekdays, and 10:00am - 6pm on weekends. It's also worth checking out the Freedom Programme - we know it's helped many MNers over the years, so please click on the link.

And finally, here's a link to Mind's pages on tips for everyday living

Sending good wishes, OP. We really hope you're okay.

@LightningStar both I think. I've started gathering documents and taking photographs of marks on my body. Emotionally I'm so drained and lost, I'm done.

@theonlygirl I dont really have family or friends, I've recently very vaguely mentioned something to a friend and she seemed disgusted at the situation (argument me and oh had where he was being unreasonable). I felt embarrassed, by her reaction and closed off again.

how about talking to Women's Aid ? They are there precisely for women in your situation. They won't judge, they've heard it all and can guide you. please call them.

YOU ARE NOT USELESS. Dont be embarrassed, there are some truly awful manipulative men who mess with your mind and drain the life from you. but it sounds as though you have decided enough is enough and are finding the strength to start to find a way to leave. Keep going.

pls call womens aid x

Reach out to your family and friends and find a way to leave this man, please.

She wasn’t acting that way to insult you, she was probably disgusted with what you have had to put up with.