For some reason this week I’ve just become broken. I’ve spent the last ten years hopeful I would find love. I’ve built a life for myself but it’s so fucking lonely. I’ve got a dog, friends, family. I have hobbies, a job. Had therapy. I lost a fiancé and had a miscarriage about 8 years ago and I wonder if I am still lost because of that. But I have therapy and Ive carried on with life. I’ve travelled. I’ve had short relationships. But basically nobody has ever loved me enough to want me in their life for the long run.
I don’t know what’s happened this week but I am just broken now. I’m fed up. The last few people I spoke to online dating announced half way through chats that they are planning on moving aboard in a year or two years 
what’s the fucking point. Others have been rude and entitled and it just all feels about a million times worse than dating when I was younger.
I don’t want to do a family thing alone. I feel like I’m just unloveable. Do people sometimes think that they’re just not meant for some things, for whatever reason, even though you can’t see the reason? It really feels like this now.