I've posted before under this name, about my dp who is a cocaine addict. I've told him countless times he has to get help and stop or leave, and stupidly I haven't followed through - he's all contrite and sweet afterwards, and it always feels almost like the occasion when he did it was just a bad dream, and once he's back to normal I find it hard to be strong enough to get him out.
However, I have definitely reached the end of my tether. I made it quite clear on Sunday that if I found he'd contacted anyone dodgy, barricaded himself in his room, or did anything that made me believe he'd done it again, he'd have to go. On Tuesday he spent £360, was uncontactable for about 11 hours, and when he came in, barricaded himself in room, til he woke me up to keep him company in his paranoid moments.
I've told him to pack and go, but he just won't budge! I feel like the only way is to pack all his stuff, chuck it out the door, and bolt it. But I just want him to go normally! He's trying to make me feel guilty that he's nowhere to go / that his job is stressful and this isn't what he needs (like he's thinking of his job etc when he does this!!)
I just can't make him realise what he's doing. He always begs for yet another chance, but I've given him far too many already.
Don't really know what anyone can say to help, but just want to rant a bit really, and vent my frustrated feelings. Thanks for reading.