Hi im very new to this and its taken alot to get here. So i guess the best place to start is the beginning.
Me and my husband have been together for 6 years both have traumatic upbringing think its what bonded us. We have two lovely little monkies. We have always been very explorative during sex one time thats relavent to this post is a foursome with his cousin and a friend. Now since then me and my husbands cousin have been occasionaly sleeping with each other purely sexual no feelings my husband is aware and is fine. The issue has arisen is my husband has come out as transgender which i feel he has tricked me in a sense. He says he let us have an open relationship as he felt guilty. I now feel guilty and have discussed leaving my husband but would stay friends and remain close but not physically as im not attracted to women. But hes now stating he doesnt want to as means losing me. Tbh i just dont know what to do anymore. We work great but im struggling to find him attractive as hes now wearing my clothes and underwear which i fully support im just stuck and feel like im drowning. I understand people will frown on this as it is unconventional but some honest advice would be beneficial.
Thank you in advance