Nc'd for this as I feel so embarrassed.
DH is away at a work conference tonight. We had an argument last night, so things were a bit tense this morning. A few snatched calls/texts/emails today haven't gone well. So at tea time, I tried to call both his personal and work phones but no answer. So I phoned the hotel to ask to be put through to his room in case he had switched phones off to be quiet in conference meetings. Hotel say he is not there and there is no conference from his company at the hotel.
Fuck. I feel like such a fool.
He's been travelling a lot more for work recently, it was making me anxious, so we talked about it and agreed I should go with him sometimes. I did a couple of weeks ago and it was lovely. When this conference came up, he said I couldn't go with him (even though I have been to a similar one with him before as it is at a hotel with a spa) because he was worried it might make him look weak in front of his colleagues. Him saying that hurt a lot so I cried. Next day he sent through lots of links for a nice B& B close by the hotel, saying why didn't I stay there, I could stay there for night of conference, he would try to join me for a bit then we could stay for the weekend afterwards.
He's fucking one of his colleagues isn't he?
He's been disinterested in sex since about Xmas, still likes a cuddle and a flirt but said it's because I have been unwell, he feels protective of me, not
sexual towards me and it takes time to switch his head round.
One of the reasons I got really upset about his travelling was my mum and dad split up when I was little, after my dad used travelling a lot for work as a cover for an affair. I cried and cried telling him about this. He said i shouldn't worry he would never do that to me and I could come with him some of his trips.
Sometimes he leaves his personal phone at home and there have been lots of witheld number calls during the day the last few weeks, they hang up when I answer. It worried me a little at the time. but now everything is starting to make sense and I feel like my whole world is collapsing.
Both his phones are switched off, going to straight to voicemail and I have no idea where he is.