have namechanged for this
and have wanted to post about this for ages but haven't dared until now
DS is 6 and DD is 3
i love DD more. :( i love DS in that i look after him, feed him, clothe him, and do everything i need to do as a mother. but the strength of love i feel for him is no where near as much as i feel for DD.
DS is from a prev relationship. and Dd is from my present marriage. i see DH in Dd and love her all the more for it. the bond between DH and i that having DD has created is amazing and that seems to make her even more special.
I never had that with DS dad as i didn't love him. DS was not planned and the relationship was pretty much over even when i was pg. i hated the pregnancy and was almost embarassed that i was pregnant by ex 
. and ds and I left ex shortly after DS was born.
i met DH when Ds was about 18 months and DH and I were completely lust love struck. and then also i fell pg with DD when DS was only 2 and a bit. so i feel i "missed out" on his toddler stage as i was completely wrapped up in my new relationship and pregnancy.
everything DD does enchants me, but i rarely feel like that about DS
i know this is rambly, and there is probably more to it so apologies in advance if i drip feed, but just wanted to get as much as poss down :(