Background: XP left over a year ago after I discovered his 2.5 year affair with a family friend. He now rents a flat. I am paying the mortgage and all bills on our joint property. XP owes me a large sum of cash. He refuses to discuss ANYTHING related to finances. I want to have the house transferred to my sole name which would wipe out his debt to me. I have been advised by a solicitor that if XP continues to bury his head in the sand then it will go to court which will incur high costs. If he wins, I lose the house and the roof over my head and if I win he will go bankrupt.
Reading the above sounds like someone else's life. I feel completely detached from reality, like it's happening to someone else. I have never come to terms with the way he betrayed his family and walked away from us so easily.
Today, I told him I've had enough and I'm going away so he can have ds for a couple of weeks. He says he will simply move back into the house. I'm not really going away. I just want to go to bed and not ever get up. Where can I go in my head to get some peace? Shall I let the solicitor do her worst knowing that I could end up homeless? Why does he hate me so much? Why won't he let me go? This sounds so pathetic but I'm completely worn down by it all.