Please be kind, I already feel like a monster, but I need some reassurance. My husband and I met when we were 16 and never planned on having kids. By the time 30 hit, I started wondering if we were making a mistake. By 35 we decided to go off the pill and leave it to fate. I felt so sure, if it was meant to be, it would all work out. However, I’m 10 weeks pregnant and I have felt nothing but panic and fear. I’m terrified I’m never going to feel happy or excited again. I prayed that the right thing would happen and I could never abort a baby God gifted us with, and my husband is excited and I couldn’t do that to him either, but I’m terrified this will never click. How can I have a baby when I’m so terrified? I’m not even showing or feeling the baby yet, what am I going to do as the pregnancy progresses? I told my doctor and they talked to me about termination options or going on meds, but I don’t feel right about either option. I’m also seeing a therapist and that helps for a little while but then all the fears and doubts creep back in. I’ve told my husband, and he is so supportive, but he feels certain an abortion would be equally as difficult, and that we will be a happy family once we get through all of this. I don’t know what’s happening to me or why I feel this way. Please help.