Just needed to post;
Don't expect a reply or an answer, but needed to get this out of my head.
28 weeks into pregnancy.
Always wanted to be a Mum. When we found out; I went into shock instead of joy.
Approaching 12 weeks I spoke to fiancée of this was a good idea? We continued.
House hunting And crazy work levels kept me so distracted. Found house; moved in; reduced work levels.
Family issues mean we now live 10 mins from my sister and her family; but I think the truth is; as much as I would like her around and involved. There is no warmth or love from her.
Dark days have been throughout, and just posting today, as it's been a very dark one.
I'm not ready. I don't enjoy being pregnant. Do I want all these changes?
Every day I hope I will feel differently, but don't