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28 weeks depression

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newtoobe · 01/09/2019 20:23

Just needed to post;

Don't expect a reply or an answer, but needed to get this out of my head.

28 weeks into pregnancy.
Always wanted to be a Mum. When we found out; I went into shock instead of joy.

Approaching 12 weeks I spoke to fiancée of this was a good idea? We continued.

House hunting And crazy work levels kept me so distracted. Found house; moved in; reduced work levels.

Family issues mean we now live 10 mins from my sister and her family; but I think the truth is; as much as I would like her around and involved. There is no warmth or love from her.

Dark days have been throughout, and just posting today, as it's been a very dark one.

I'm not ready. I don't enjoy being pregnant. Do I want all these changes?
Every day I hope I will feel differently, but don't

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soniamumsnet · 04/09/2019 15:35

Hi @newtoobe. We're just bumping this thread for you so hopefully some Mumsnetters will be along soon with some advice.

We've also moved it to the Pregnancy section.

Kate3150 · 04/09/2019 15:52

@newtoobe- Have you spoken to midwife or GP
about how you’ve been feeling?
Pregnancy is such a scary and daunting experience, particularly for us first time Mamas! I’m approaching 26 weeks and have suffered anxiety on and off. I try not to get frustrated with the anxiety as it just makes it worse, but it has certainly robbed me of having the happy and joyous pregnancy that I feel I deserve.
I know you posted a few days ago. How are you feeling at the moment? I have set up a pregnancy anxiety thread if you wanted to join for a bit do
support. Sending lots of cuddles 💜

Kate3150 · 04/09/2019 15:53

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newtoobe · 01/10/2019 22:01

32 weeks now.

Emotions haven't eased.

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newtoobe · 08/10/2019 08:13

33 week scan yesterday

Partners sister so disappointed it's not a girl.
How is this not rude!

Mental health team - grrrrr
Only focused on safeguarding.

My sister! Where to start!

Out to work today and tomo, and act like a normal version of myself.

Wish me luck x

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Tableclothing · 08/10/2019 08:25

Good luck. But you know, you don't have to act like a normal version of yourself. You can see your GP and get signed off for a bit. You can tell your partner's sister she's rude and walk out of the room (if there's ever a time to get away with being a bit hormonal, it's now).

Have you been offered any actual NHS support? (Beyond fortnightly appointments to check you're not planning on topping yourself?). What is your midwife like?

What is your partner like? Have you talked to them?
What plans have you got around the birth?

Who is there that you can talk to about how you're feeling?

Ime/o being pregnant is bloody awful. Counting down the days. I keep having to have strict words with myself to remember that hating the exhaustion and pain and that I can't currently do any of the things I used to enjoy doesn't mean I'm a bad mum or that I won't love my child.

Lou2120 · 08/10/2019 08:25

Sorry your feeling so down have you spoken to your midwife or GP?
One thing I will say is if people are bringing you down emotionally then give yourself space from them. Trust me I understand my sister and I dont talk anymore and it hurt to begin with but I'm much happier now. Not saying that is what you need to do but give yourself space if needed.
Big hugs remember venting on here can help x

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newtoobe · 12/10/2019 19:09

Thank you both so much for your very kind words

Was just coming on here to update, 34 weeks today,

GP appointment Tuesday for some anti depressants.

Partner is being wonderful, kind and supportive x but me being like this can't be easy on him, I'm not very easy to love being like this I'd imagine.

Got back today after a few days in Glastonbury, mare it to the top of the tor!! Felt positive for achieving something, and not being lazy!

Was really hoping to connect with something there to help me want what's coming in 5 weeks time- but it didn't happen.

The CBT sessions seem like only a check list on some system tbh.

Sister- who didn't show up last week to visit, saying she had this coming Monday on calendar, has cancelled this Monday now too.

Partner away till tomo, I'm just going to focus on being gentle with myself x

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FelixFelicis6 · 12/10/2019 19:16

Pregnancy isn't always this magical time when you feel on top of the world - it can be really really tough, emotionally and physically, so please don't feel down on yourself for struggling.

Well done for going to the GP and getting help - what services are you currently engaged in?

Partner's sister sounds horrible! Ignore....

LH1987 · 12/10/2019 20:31

Well done on going to the GP and getting some additional help. I think we all expect to feel instantly happy and 'motherly' when we find out we are pregnant and I don't think that's the case. Don't set expectations for how you should feel and just take care of yourself. Sister sounds like a self absorbed pain aswell....

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