Hello,
My baby is 4 months old & I love him more than anything but last night I had the worlds worst night mare & I can't relax..
I dreamt I was with my mum, and for some reason I had to kill my baby - which in the dream was perfectly normal! I stabbed him in the side, he didn't bleed, he just looked at me. & I handed him to my mum.
He started to whimper and we both knew it's because the pain was kicking in so I ran to get him calpol & neurofen and my mum gave him a bottle! - what???
He didn't die, but I woke up and I just feel so weird & sad. What was that all about?? I know you have weird dreams when being pregnant - I had a couple, but nothing like this.
I can't get the image of his little face looking at me whilst I done something so awful! What is wrong with me :'(