Nightmare

[Keza7]

Hello,

My baby is 4 months old & I love him more than anything but last night I had the worlds worst night mare & I can't relax..

I dreamt I was with my mum, and for some reason I had to kill my baby - which in the dream was perfectly normal! I stabbed him in the side, he didn't bleed, he just looked at me. & I handed him to my mum.

He started to whimper and we both knew it's because the pain was kicking in so I ran to get him calpol & neurofen and my mum gave him a bottle! - what???

He didn't die, but I woke up and I just feel so weird & sad. What was that all about?? I know you have weird dreams when being pregnant - I had a couple, but nothing like this.

I can't get the image of his little face looking at me whilst I done something so awful! What is wrong with me :'(

Hi Keza7 - we're going to pop this over to our Parenting topic, for you to get better support and advice.

All the best

oh luv, that is just generalised parenting anxiety peeking through your subconsciousness. Basically your brain has selected the most horrifying images it could - precisely because they are horrifying! I would just forgive yourself (it didn't actually happen and obviously ever will) and let it go!

I can imagine how you feel though.

It's nothing to worry about just your brain cleaning out all the trash.
Please don't give it another thought.

Nothing is wrong with you.

You had a nightmare. They are awful and frightening when they are happening but that's all they are.

Forget about it.