Ok, my present situation, 5 kids age 8 to 10 months and am 5 months preg.
Relationship with dp not good to say tyhe least, it's a strictly parenting, trying to make things work for the kids but no love or affection involved.
I've had a couple of bereavments this year as well. So all in all I feel tired, emotionally and physically. This afternoon at school run time I not only had all of my 5 with me but was bringing home two friends.
There is a little walk from the school to a pub carpark that everyone uses, it's a village school so every one know every one.
Anyway when I get to the car I'm loading kids in and I hear a mother called my name. She is a particularly precious mother of an only child who can do no wrong, you get the picture. She asks me if I have lost a child and I say not that I know. She then says that I have and she is at school. So I am amazed because I think that I have counted them all in and run off to see dd2 (3) being lead by the hand to the crossing.
I get her, she's fine btw but I feel mortified and so embarassed. I know this woman will be gossiping about me saying I can't cope etc. I have left dd2 once before but went back to get her and she hadn't even realised I was gone.
It was just the way this woman looked at me and the faces she pulled that didn't hide her disdain.
So now I feel shit. I shouldn't but I do.
Anyway, thank for bearing with this rambling post.
Am I really losing it or what, does anyone ele have similar experiences or is it simply me being a shit ,careless and incompetent mother?