I read something just now. A very lucky lady has just discovered she is pregnant. Obviously this is wonderful news for her. She is quite understandably ecstatic. As was I when I found out we were expecting our babies.
But I am chewing my fingers off to stop myself saying anything. Now I have entered this nasty dark world of miscarriage and babyloss I feel like I've lost all that lovely innocence 
She's so excited about the baby being due in the summer and talking about morning sickness. Now I know 1 in 4 pregnancies ends badly, I can't help but feel so sad for these women. I just cannot bear to think of it happening to anyone else but it is going to keep happening and people are going to continue to have their lives shattered.
I want to post a congratulations, but I just feel so desperately sad for her and have this awful anxious fear for her . I felt exactly the same as her before I experienced miscarriage, just totally and utterly naive. I expected to meet my baby three weeks ago, there was no doubt in my mind that I'd be holding my baby in my arms. But I am not. I am empty.
Obviously I won't say anything but it just pains me so much and I hope hope hope that she doesnt experience this devastating heartbreak.
That's it really. I just needed to write it down.