Struggling after late miscarriage

[Paige84]

I know it might be "normal" (whatever normal is in these awful situations) but I'm really struggling right now after losing my baby girl 3 weeks ago tomorrow. I had a scan at 15+6 which was perfect. She was moving around lots and all looked fine. On the morning of the next day, I listened to her heartbeat (home doppler) and again, this was perfect. At 9pm, after two hours of severe pains my waters broke and at 11.48 that night she was born. I had to stay in hospital for 48hours on fluids and antibiotics as my temp was a little high (bloods confirmed no infection though). I was kept on the post-natal ward the whole time with women coming and going with their brand new bundles of joy.
It's now almost 3 weeks ago and in my old life I was the strong, solid and dependable one in any situation and crisis but right now, I'm just feeling completely broken. I'm finding it hard to get through the day without dissolving. Work is awful, I'm in charge of a group of 10 and I just don't care anymore. I don't sleep anymore and can't remember how to function. I don't even remember who I used to be. I've never felt so utterly lost, despite a partner who's doing his best but is already "over it" and moved on.
Sorry I've rambled on, I guess I just wondered if anyone out there has felt this low and managed to find a way out of this dark hole? I don't know how to carry on.

[Paige84]

Today I'm heading into theatre for a D&C. 8 weeks and 2 days after giving birth. I'm hoping this helps and means I can start to physically heal so I can start to mentally try to wrap my head around things.