I have longed to write this message for literally years, and now i finally can. On New Year's Day i gave birth to the baby we never thought we'd have. Our daughter arrived two weeks early after some drama but we are all fine now and absolutely over the moon. She is called Rosalind and weighs a respectable 7lb3oz despite being early.
Over the last two and a half years I have drawn huge support from this message board after losing four pregnancies, one after another, with no real explanation. There were some very, very dark moments but I always found sympathy and emotional sustenance here. It really felt like a life line and I have made some precious friendships through these threads.
I want to thank everyone here for sharing their very personal experiences of the misery of miscarriage: nobody who uses this board need feel alone.
Over the years I built up more knowledge about the subject of recurrent miscarriage than anyone should need, and I enjoy sharing it. In the end i had various treatments which may or may not have made the difference. That's the thing about miscarriage - so little is really known about it, and many of us will never have firm answers.
I hope my story proves that there is hope, even if you never get a diagnosis. We were lucky enough to have a son before this nightmare started, so have always been more blessed than many on this board - but the endless pregnancy losses that dominated the last few years of our lives were a huge shock and become all-consuming at times.
I know i'll continue to visit this board often to see if there's any help I can give to others as they wait for their own miracles to happen; and am always happy to answer private mails about tests and treatments.
Thank you everyone, from the bottom of my heart. Sotough/ aka Kissmummy