My ex was emotionally abusive and a rubbish father really. He was good at the public act, still is, but underneath that he only cares about himself. I'm just feeling sad for my son's that he doesn't care about them. Our youngest is 9 months so changing all the time, but he isn't interested. They are doing so much better without him around, but they deserve a dad and I feel so guilty that they don't have one. I feel to blame for having children with him and whenever I see loving caring dads I wish they could have that too