Just want to vent... come join me for a moan if you like!

[squirrelnutkins1]

We've been ttc to 2 years, with a laparoscopy, HSG, miscarriage, failed Letrazole trial along the way and now just waiting for clinic appt tomorrow to see what the next steps are.

I'm feeling like I'm never going to have our baby in our arms.

My chest aches with the pain of miscarriage and my 'due' date is fast approaching. Goodness knows how that's going to be. To add insult to injury my due date was our wedding anniversary - which when I was pregnant I thought was the most amazing thing ever, but now it just feels cruel.

I'm not sure why I'm writing all of this. I guess I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself!

Can I join? Three retrievals, three transfers, 5 good quality embryos and all BFN. Was unexplained but after my third transfer I had a lap and have been diagnosed with stage 2 endo. Last retrieval was April, and I'll be completing my third cycle in Nov as we did a freeze all due to suspect endometrioma, which wasn't one in the end plus my lap which has knocked me off my feet. Just can't imagine it'll ever work. Feel better having a diagnosis which indicates it might never work - at least we know. House is a mess as we've had building work, won't be sorted until Xmas. Gah! Sorry for the downer post but it's helpful to let it out! x

@DawnK77 looking forward to the weekend and going to treat myself to a few drinks 🍷🍸 going for a nice meal with some friends on sat. How about you?

@FingersXssd83 sorry about all you've been thru. Dya what tho, I had a lap and 7 weeks later I was pregnant (ended in mc but even so) don't underestimate the power of having a bit of a tidy up inside! A friend also had the same experience after a polyp was removed. All the very best to you xxx

Lap totally knocked me off my feet for weeks as well. The tiredness was unreal. I've got stage 3 endo 🙄

Wow thanks for sharing @squirrelnutkins1 that gives me hope!

AF arrived yesterday (first post lap) and I've been in the worse pain ever! Our consultants have said we can transfer on my next cycle but I'm worried that I must be so inflamed after my excision that it might not be the best decision. They found one blocked tube (stupid stupid endo!) so IVF is definitely our best way forward.

So sorry to read about your MC, must have been hell to go through. Sounds awful (and this is is not a comment directed at anyone who has been through loss) but I wish I'd had chance to experience implantation, just to know my body can work in the way it's intended.

Do you have a cycle coming up? I remember your name from other threads. Sending you positivity today ❤️ xx

Hi squirrel! That's sounds like a plan, other half is back from working away so I'll think we will do the same. I've just rang the clinic to ask what is happening at next Friday's appointment as we both realised last night we have no idea, I instantly feel emotional so sat in car on my lunch break having a think. Only been four weeks and I forgot how it all makes me feel. Xxx

Hi fingers, I had a lap and that wiped me out too. Have a relaxing few days. Xxxxx