Thank you all - it's really lovely to hear from you all again. Many of your words have stuck in my mind over the last few months, and brought much needed comfort.
I'll always remember a post from you Squonk - you said "Fuck me, can this woman get no peace!" - it was so blunt, and true, and caught my mood exactly, you had me laughing for days
The next challenge is to be able to safely come back to the UK to visit family. I might be leaving that a wee while though