I'm not really sure where my post belongs. I posted a while back about my abusive mum and hoarder dad. I have recently come to terms with the fact that my mum mentally and physically abused me. I have always known but for reason it's really hit me this year.
I have two disabled kids. One has severe asd and the other has a statement with complex needs.
I decided to go to the doctor about my hoarding this year. I had CBT but it only lasted five weeks. I have been put forward for more ongoing long term therapy but not sure yet if I meet criteria.
My house isnt really shockingly bad but it's very cluttered. I keep trying to sort but every time I do I feel even worse the next day as it gets cluttered up again by the kids.
It's like emptying the bath with a thimble while the tap is still running.
After asking for therapy, asking my Dh I feel even worse. I have had years of trying to get my son a statement, now my asd boy is going through the same thing and his EHCP is two months late.
I feel like I have been holding back the tide and it's all got too much now.
Everything is too much. The house is a tip, I can't get to my wardrobe to get clothes out. I tried to clear it but Dh was clearing up for a kids party and blocked it again! I told him last night I had cleared up and he came home, he looked at somewhere I hadn't touched and said it looked much better!
I feel worse than before I started to change
What's the point? I just can't see any way out of this despite trying everything I can think of.