I am a regular poster, I promise, but I've changed my name for obvious reasons. Someone will probably guess who I am but I don't care, just didn't want to post under my usual name.
I have been celebite since pregnancy with my third child,now 2, and felt great, much better than when I was with my ex.
Anyway, he turned up a few months ago and started seeing the children, but has been putting lots of pressure on me to have sex. He is very persuasive, and I eventually caved in. I didn't have full sex with him but gave him oral sex
Two weeks later I got a bad sore throat. I went to the STD clinic and the doctor looked. He said as my tonsils were inflamed he thought it probably wasn't an STD, just a normal throat infection. He gave me Amoxycillan. I have been on it 5 days now and feel no better. I feel like I have flu but am not sneezing, just shivery and not quite right. I also have a headache.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm making myself feel like this, I have convinced myself now that I have HIV and can not forgive what I have done to my children. I felt so clean and happy when I was on my own and now I feel dirty and diseased.
I have looked it up on the web and apparantly with HIV, you can get flu like symptons 2-4 weeks after becoming infected.
Can anyone tell me honestly what the chances of becoming infected with HIV are after one episode of oral sex (the job was completed, if you know what I mean)
I feel so disgusting and ashamed. I know it's no excuse but he is a very controlling person. I find it hard to stand up to him.
I'm pretty sure he has not injected drugs but he has been with ALOT of women. He is what some may call 'a player'
I know no one can really put my mind at risk and I will have to wait 3 months + for a test but just wanted to share how horrible I feel.