i know it's cowardly but life is too hard and i wish i was dead

[ihavenamechangedyes]

i know i should keep trying but i don't want to i want to escape

I am so sorry you feel this way

Can you talk any more about why you feel so sad?

it's just a pain i have inside that i can't live with anymore and i don't think anyone will miss me now

You're not alone in feeling like that, and there is help for you. People can come back from feeling like this and be happy again. Do write down more if it would help, or call the Samaritans 08457 90 90 90 (if in the UK).

read this

I am so sorry, is there anyone in RL you can talk to?

Keep posting if you feel better doing so

i don't want any help i've tried for too long it's never going to get any better

i am going to bed

It's good that you posted, hope it helps that people are here to listen if you want to come back.

if I dream about escaping and not being here anymore maybe that will stave it off a bit

Please do ring the Samaritans on the number a few posts up from this. And come back and post or talk to someone else.

my fellow mner, you need some RL help - NOW! You're feeling very bad, I can see. Please be brave. xx