usually i try to be positive, but right now, i cant be. dh is dying. the only thing that can save him is for someone else to die. he is getting weaker each day, the meds are supporting him, without them he would've died long ago.
seeing him today with the line going into his neck scared me. i know he is ill, but sometimes i forget how ill he really is. i know that this could the last summer we spend together. he is going downhill, and fast. the docs are trying to keep him stable, and he is fine for a little while, then they have to edmit him, adjust/try new meds and fingers crossed. i'm sorry for being so down, but i need to let this all out.