feeling particularly panicy today - got that rushing feeling

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round my body again - I know why - we are going away for the weekend.

I have to get things done but am finding it hard to move. My cheeks are flushed - trying to stop biting my cheeks and tongue.

Just want to cry.

need to do one thing at once and need to stop holding my breath

have no idea where to start
writing on here to calm myself a bit so I can carry on.

You are all being so kind.
I am going to try to make a cuppa.

trying to only think of that rather than all the other things I have to do before DH comes home at lunchtime.

Argh just typing that has made me think of ALL the things I have to do ARRGH..

So lets try this -

Yan, tan, tether, mether, pimp, sether, hether, hother, dother, dick, yan dick, tan dick, mether dick, bumfit, yan bumfit, tan bumfit, tether bumfit, mether bumfit, gigot.

apparently that is counting to 20 in traditional cumbrian language.

'pimp! tan dick, bumfit'!!!!
that's rudey counting!

have you got your cuppa?

I HAVE A CUPPA!!

I have set the timer (fly style) for 15 minutes
and am not going to try not to worry about anything till the beeper goes off.

the rude counting comes from a childrens poetry book that Alexander bought me to read.

WOOPWOOP!

very well done my dear.

you've done it once you can do it again!!

and nothing terrible happened!!

thanks ladies.

beeper has just gone off.

going to take clean washing upstairs next

I love my DH
he just called I mentioned that I have been panicy this morning - he said "please get your clothes ready for going away - toilet bag and make up and leave everything else"

have taken laundry upstairs am now trying to work out what to tackle next.

how lovely!!

can i be nosey and ask where you are going??

We are going to PiL tonight to settle the boys in with them then tomorrow morning we are going into London for our Christmas pressies.
He bought us a sunset flight on the london Eye - I bought us evening tickets to the Mark Rothko Exhibition and then we are going out for dinner at Smiths of smithfields.
My sister bought us a night at "the rookery"

then we are meeting PiL & DS's in Chinatown for Dim Sum on Sunday.

I should be looking forward to it instead of being so frightened!

omg. that does sound wonderful.

i can understand that you may feel over whelmed by it all though.

which bit are you looking forward to most?

Have a lovely time.

being on my own with Dh for Saturday I miss him.. and he is not good at sharing me with the DS's

yummy.
maybe you could do some rudey counting with him!!!

have a really wonderful time, and let us know how it went and a bit

Thanks all...

I do think it is all so much stuff I can't cope with it anyway will enjoy it when I am there.

still haven't managed to get to the nect thing..
Need to get dressed

still not dressed

can't seem to shake this off..

DH going to be home soon.

I hope he takes over for a bit but I know I am not going to be able to ask him to do the things that need doing.
need to get some lunch for DS2 - there are strange noises coming from outside. I tdoesn't sound like drilling but it is making the house vibrate. I want it to stop.

DH home - he has taken control - things are getting done and I can plonk around at my own pace

thanks for all your support this morning.

Have a nice weekend, hope it does you a bit of good xx

Thanks everyone - had a great time.
lots to do today to catch up.

will try to stay calm and in control.

it says in your profile that you live in East Anglia - so do I!!

Where abouts? I live on the waveney boarder x

am in cambridge - not sure where waveney is.. is it up on the coast?