god im so sick of myself.im really not having a good week

[CvQ]

i feel like im bubbling over with anxiety.i need to get a handle on things.i am really trying to keep a lid on things with mum being here.its so hard.i dont feel like i can get rid of my tension.like i cant be me
if your sick of me going on i understand why.i feel the same tbh.

if mum wasnt here i would call.she is so i cant.they would come.i would be alright.but their not coming and im nnot going tobe alright.fuck

CvQ, I know you dont want to do this but so what if your mum finds out everything. You are worried that she will use it against you in the future. How? Depression does stange things and makes some things seem much more important than they are.
Now you live a long way from her. You can make her not affect your life unless you want her to.
I think that you must call crisis and sod what your mother thinks. She has let you down in the past. Why must you do the the honour of pretending that you are OK?
They can come to your house and sort you out. You want that, and that is good that you want to deal with your feelings like that. They can explain something to your mum about why you are here.
I am so sorry that this is so hard for you.
Please think about this. You know that something has to budge if you are to carry on, so please call the crisis team

its all so hard.i jsut want some peace

thankyou fro trying tohelp me x

CvQ I have to go to bed now. Try to get some rest. Try seven eleven breathing. You lie in a dark room and breathe in to the count of seven then out to the count of eleven. keep going and it tricks your body into relaxing.

How are you this morning?

cvq: how are you today? Did you manage any sleep?

sorry just seen your other thread