Bordem is starting to get to me... its making me so low!

[charlotte121]

I love my dc's but my whole life revolves around them. I spend all my time looking after them, cleaning, decorating our scabby flat, trying to get work done for uni or worrying about money. There is no excitement in my life.

Im 20 years old and Im pathetic. I have hardly any friends and no one ever bothers to invite me out anymore. Im constantly stuck in. I have 0 social life

And when I do go out its like packing for a holiday. It takes hours to get ready to go out and requires major planning.

I get great pleasure from spending time with the dcs but at times I would love a little attention for myself and have someone take care of me for a bit.
I feel like im going to crack up sometimes but when I tell people they say "dd is only 6 weeks old, its ur hormones" its not. ITS TOTAL BORDOM!!! my life is the same day after day and I dont know how to make it interesting and get my old sparkle back.

oh man, know the feeling.
but maybe it is the hormones making you feel that the neverending drudgery of it right now is All There Will Ever Be iyswim. or maybe its the lack of sleep, it is used as a torture method you know, sleep deprivation.

the one constant in life is change. hold onto that thought when times are tough (and forget it when theyre great)

Lack of sleep isnt an issue lol dd sleeps through the night [smug face]
I agree about your comment about change... theres nothing wrong with a simple life and I have had way more than my fair share of shit over the past 12 years i think i must have smashed aload of mirrors or something lol. I think im just very lonely... i find the eveings really hard. Kids are asleep so theres nothing to destract me.
Could do with someone to give me a bit of attention. Have a lot of money issues atm so cant afford to go out, dealing with the emotional strain alone is horrid.

absolutely. isolation and loneliness are v tough to deal with... far too much time alone to spend stewing and pondering driving yourself nuts!
where are you anyway?

(v jealous of miraculous sleeping baby btw )

I need to go to bed, I clicked on that as I thought it said Boden, sorry

lol at boden u have made me chuckle!!! Im in bristol, westbury. thats exactly it... i have too much time to think. Its driving me mad. But i cant stop myself... I hate being alone all evening. The silence is deafening even with the tv and music on.

aw, listen girl, you need to take some small steps to alleviate this situation, even once a month or something... coz if you dont it could very well develop into a more annoying and long lasting mental health problem, take it from me. tis easy to avoid... just dont let yourself sink into the mud without a fight. chuck out a call for lifelines every now and then, dont let people ignore/forget you. and dont underrate the enormous job youre doing - you deserve some credit and time for you.