Spent this week pretending to self that psych assessment was a positive milestone. But it isn't

[objectivity]

Apparently because my parents didn't seriously or physically abuse me then I don't have major needs for therapy and it's down to me to re-route the path of their and their parents' legacy of emotional abuse and self esteem bashing.

Keep remembering incidents from my childhood and cried alone for hours last night.

Feel alone and completely unloved by anybody including my DC who behaved so badly in GP surgery the doctor wrote my prescription (have tonsillitis) wrong.

it is a positive milestone- you are taking steps towards dealing with issues that have affected your whole life.

are you saying you have been refused therapy?

I am waiting to hear the final assessment but essentially the session went along lines of 'pull yourself together or your children will end up in care'

Non native 'doctor' who was one of two doing assessment - the other was a rather more switched on (imo) Social Worker - turned to colleague and said 'it's ok to hit in this country isn't it?' and Social Worker was going "err... no, not in schools"

"Aha! So see, you didn't suffer really bad abuse so you need to work on you now"

AndI say but I am so disturbed by the past Idon't feel I can without regressive therapy"

I'mnot sure what I'll get, if anything but the doctor kept on about me sorting out self because waiting lists were so long for treatment.

Gosh, I feel so angry for you, objectivity, I can't believe that this doc has been so insensitive towards you and the situation that you are in.
Sorry I can't offer any advice, but am really and for you.

Have there been any social workers who you feel have been sympathetic and get things moving for you?
Was it just the 2 dc's you had with you?

So I hope my doubters can understand why I felt suicidal and why I don't feel that trying to help oneself very often gets you anywhere.

I hopemumsnet don't just take the approach of 'call your GP or visit Mind website, etc.' in resposne to desperate mumsnetters. Many may have tried these avenues before.

I feel very low indeed.

GP has been good, and the person who did my initial telephone assessment was good but when it has come to the crunch the help isn't there. My case from earlier threads in point.

I have 3 DC none were at this assessment. I was late to collect DS from nursery too because the assessment overran. School were as usual.

Another Black Mark.

objectivity can you go back to your GP. My experience with the NHS (not in this field- but in an area where resources are limited and overstretched) is that it depends so much on which individual you see. Are there any strings your GP can pull?

Is there any chance at all that you could afford to pay for some help privately? I'e also found that when the NHS can be bypassed, if I can afford it it is well worth paying for as the services are so much better.

I'll see what the final assessment report says I guess but I feel like I can't be bothered trying anymore tbh.

Children's father has made residency application on basis of my ill health. It's all getting waaay too much again.

One step forward two back.

Would LOVE to be bal to afford private treatment but I can't afford the rent on our place atm.

If your GP is good I'd really go back to him/her. Explain about the assessment and exactly how it's left you feeling. You need someone professional on your side and GP's can fit that role. And it is his/her job to sort something suitable for you.

I know nothing about mental health services (so am being a bit chocolate tea-potty) but I have spent years trying to get the NHS to deliver basic services so I can understand the frustration of there being nothing there to access. Just suddenly getting decent help from one person can make a big difference though.

Are there any charities that can provide help?Does anyone else reading this thread know of any?

I'm so sorry for you as i have a friend in simular situation,she got fed up with GP untill one day they had a temp' GP in and she got things moving I'll call her now and seee if she has any advice,
Which area are you in ? my friend's in Buckinghamshire.

Try to

How are you objectivity? I've seen so many of your threads over the last year or so, and I so wish I could do somthing or offer some help , so here's a bump in the hope there is someone else around on mumsnet who can.
Do you have a good friend you could take with you to the gp or social worker to help you ?