That’s it really. No real local friends, no family apart from dd 20 ( who no longer lives with me and is currently blaming me for mistakes I made in her childhood- maybe rightly so but I did what thought was right at the time). Terrible anxiety, ocd, overthinking, feeling like I’ll fall apart if anything else goes wrong and feel like crying.
Have had counselling, cbt, hypnotherapy & ssris in the past. So desperately sad and don’t really know the point of it all anymore.