I’ve felt so unhappy for years. My self esteem is in tatters, I’ve tried so many things to try and make myself feel better but I honestly swear nothing works and I just want to give up now.
I’ve tried all the things that people suggest
- I’ve trialled therapy with 3 different therapists. I felt like I just spoke to them about my problems but nothing ever helped long term
- i have joined the gym and I find it so fucking boring. I tried running and never felt the runners high. I always look for new clubs etc to join but I never stick to them because I never fully enjoy them. I tried football and jiu jitsu but just ended up slowly stopping going
- i I don’t have many friends. Everyone always says to go and meet people but if I try something social it never goes past small talk and then I just give up
- everyone says to try new things but genuinely nothing interests me
- I have tried medication 3 times and it didn’t do anything for me at all
I also don’t have the money to try new things. I wanted to try Pilates classes but it was 80 per month and I just don’t have a lot of disposable income at all.
I do not have money for therapy at the moment it’s so expensive
My boyfriend has told me that I am upset all the time and that recently I have not had any positive things to say, and that I am beginning to bring him down. This breaks my heart but genuinely I feel like I’ll never be happy, I’ll never stick to anything, I’ll never find something that gives me those feelings. I have no idea how to even think positive, it doesn’t stick
can somebody help because I feel so so close to giving up