I'm hopefully looking for some help.
I have anxiety. I have always been a worrier even as a child but I would say just usual quiet, shy worried child.
Around 10 years ago ( late twenties) I was experiencing stress at work and recognised my behaviour and reactions wasn't normal! I was given CBT and things calmed down. I was still anxious but it wasn't as bad and I didn't go through as much stress.
4 years ago my DD was born during Covid and my anxiety spiralled.
My anxiety doesn't stop me doing anything but it does ruin all of my enjoyment. I worry about all of the things I can't control.
This weekend I am away for a weekend in Europe with a dear friend for her birthday. The trip has been planned for ages and I spent the weeks before terrified and worried about the flight. Once we arrived I had a lovely 2 days but tommorrow we leave and every minute of the day today I am convinced our flight will be cancelled or the airport will have a melt down and stop flights or we will get stuck in traffic and I won't get on the plane and I won't get home to her and the thoughts made me cry .
DD is with my Dh and they are having a wonderful time. My worries are not to do with how she is but more I just can't wait
To be with her and I'm convinced I won't get home.
I'm so fed up of feeling like this
A few months ago I had some talking therapy on my work and I tried telling the therapist about my thoughts and she told me
As a mother these things are normal but I don't think the level of enjoyment I lose is normal. I only had a few weeks with her but I don't feel it helped
I'm sorry this has been so long but I'm spending today feeling so ridiculously teary because I'm desperate to see my DD tommorrow and I hate that I'm not my usual bubbly self instead I spend the whole time worrying about my flight
Does anyone have any advice? Would a better talking therapist help?
Thanks so much in advance