Hi Help125674, we're really sorry to hear you're feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. There are lots of organisations listed which can give you some support.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected], or call them, any time, on 116 123. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you'll be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.
There's also help available from a text service called Shout 85258. Shout's trained volunteers are available all hours of the day and night to listen and support you to get to a calmer and safe place. It's a free, confidential, anonymous service for anyone in the UK and it won’t appear on your phone bill.
And finally, here's a link to Mind's pages on Tips for everyday living.
We're going to move your thread over to our Mental Health topic shortly.
We're glad to see that you're getting some good support from other Mumsnetters, and that you've made contact with your ex. We really hope things start to feel a bit easier for you soon. 