I have struggled with self harm for 10 years know in many ways I am doing a lot better. I am finally getting some therapy and the frequency has massively reduced. I am going through a very rough time at the moment and I have been using it as a coping strategy I am working as hard as I can and engaging as much as possible but it's so hard to stop a 10 year habit. It happened about a month ago and the resulting injury had to be fixed by my local plastics department a hospital over. It took them a while to do. They said they had better things to do and wouldn't be prioritising mental people. But they did fix it. It has happened a few days ago but the plastics department have said they won't fix it as they've done it before. I may be able to live with this but it has gone through the muscle and resulting structures and I can't move my leg or weight bare it is also very open and has become very infected. I have a weakened immune system so am worried about this. I have a temperature and high heart rate. Nurses are struggling to dress it due to the size. I have had doctors and nurses escalate this but they aren't budging. They are going to try and get my consultant psychiatrist to get in contact so it's from a consultant. I have tried to get in contact with pals but no luck so far I just don't know what to do. I am worried about losing my leg or getting sepsis or never being able to walk again. I understand I did this to my self and I deeply regret it. I really wish I didn't do it. But as my doctor and therapist said it's a long road.
I just don't know what to do