There's literally no other explanation. Other people always seem to be confused when I share my thoughts with them, I'm always getting paranoid that other people are saying things/complaining about me, but when I question them on it they never seem to know what I'm talking about. I can't trust anyone else, at all. I always seem to take anything and everything people say to me the wrong way. After every single conversation I have with another person I will go over it again and again and if I remember something that makes me think I've upset them, I'll make myself sick worrying about it. I've got really poor social skills, people always ask why I'm quiet and I just tell them it's the way I am. I'm always spending money on things I really don't need and can't afford, just out of impulse. I often binge-eat, I'm easily distracted and led-astray (I haven't noticed this myself but my mum said she noticed it), I always thought my relationship with my friend was as tight as it could get but since I've stopped working with her 3 months ago she hasn't been interested in speaking to me. People could insult me with words which if it was anyone else, they wouldn't be offended, by if they say it to me I will take it to heart and when I'm on my own will just sit there and cry. I have to have guidance on making the simplest of decisions, it could just be wether to put my washing on the line or in the dryer, I'm always needing reassurance from my co-workers that I'm doing my job properly.
I've worked at McDonald's for six weeks, which is obviously a very fast-paced job, and that's something I've struggled with massively. I don't know if that's got anything to do with it but just thought I'd say that too.
I also sometimes have absences (I just stare into space with absolutely no awareness of what's happening around me whatsoever). I've been having tests done at the hospital but they can't find anything wrong with my brain in the scans they've done so far.
I just feel like as I've got older, these problems have only got bigger. Last year, just two days before my 18th birthday, I was having suicidal thoughts to the point where I contacted a helpline.
I know this isn't really the place to post it but I just don't know what else to do. Can someone please help/advise me because I really am at a loss and I feel like it's only going to get worse if I just do nothing.