just had ADS increased when 2 months ago dr was discussing reducing maybe even coming off
feel like a failure
HV has recommended SureStart to give me a break but feel that is letting everyone down & will make me look like I cant cope.
I work part time which is for my family & to show my children that its important for their mum to earn money etc but my H has cut maintenance to bare minimum & am now overdrawn. Struggling to pay the bills....need to find enough money to pay him off so dont have "deferred charge" on my house - how can you live knowing if you reach a trigger point I have to find £XK?
feel like giving up but kids will be happier in the home they've always known....but just dont know how to find the money
meanwhile H moans on about money & access..