Everything seems hoepless.
Have mental health issues, been worsening last couple of months. Suicidal every day. Am not working due to MH, no DC, study part-time (Open Univeristy).
About to massively fuck up.
In top grade boundary for year so far.
Been crying more and more, unable to stop for most of last 3 days.
Will definitely not even pass exam. Barely done any preparation cos of MH deteriorating.
Don't even want to go, don't feel safe going, can't bear it, but have to attend to be entitled to re-sit.
But re-sits are capped to bare pass mark. Pointless having done well this year so far.
This was the only positive thing in my life, now it's all gone.
I cant re-sit next year cos that'll be too much to do then.
I tried to improve my life and shouldn;t have bothered, now Ijust have another failure.
I dont want to keep living
Ive called the crisis team but noone can fix this