Posted before but NC although some details may be revealing.
This evening I just feel I can’t go on anymore.
Had a horrible break up from my DCs Dad. I was left destitute but managed to borrow some money from family to be able to rent a room but couldn’t afford a house for myself & the DCs so they live with their father.
He abused me sexually & physically but is a good father to DC.
In past 2 days he has sent me numerous messages about how I am vile & mad & never laid a finger on me. The abuse is documented with the police but I feel I’m going mad.
Tonight he has sent an email (as blocked him on text) to tell me I cannot see the DC on Christmas Day unless I retract my accusations. I am in pieces & feel a complete failure as a mother . Today I travelled over 5 hrs (its only a 30 min train journey but lots of delays) to see them for 30 minutes.
Presents I have bought them have been bought by the new GF - they were his family’s tradition so I have lost that right.
I am just beside myself