As well as my kids, 5 and 8 yrs I look after my mum nearly 80. she lives alone and I'm the only one who can/does visit her. my siblings live 100's of miles away and visit her on average once a yr (less for my brother) it's all left to me. but also I'm the only one with young kids too and its all getting me down so often. my dh is brilliant but apart from him theres no one and I mean no one to help with the kids or mum. and having the 3 of them together is bloody draining.
I just feel totally like I've lost any identity/life I had, it all goes into making sure the kids are ok and mum is too and its more than full time job. I also work 3 part time jobs around the kids, but everythings left to me. I really resent my older brother and sister, they go on holiday abroad/weekends away and don't think for a minute to come up and see mum and take a bit of pressure off me, they are so fucking selfish. I hate them sometimes, i caould go on but who cares, I feel like I'm going to be founnd screaming one day, in fact feel like I'm screaming already and no one hears me. Don't ever wish my mum away or my kids grown up but just can't see me ever having a tiny bit of life again.