Shit its happened again...

[babybuttercup]

i find myself sitting here at the beginnig of jan, Bottle of rum, bottle of coke and a glass. What the fuck am i doing - feel like shit and dont know how many times i can pull mysellf through it.

Damn your a fiesty bunch sometimes. Just joined mumsnet recentley, first time mum 24 and so far, hate to rub it in but loving it. I'm trying to understand PND and if theres any common thread. The highs and lows I'm reading about are so extreme, how does this affect your relationships with your partner/kids/families? Do you ever regret having your baby and is it something in their behaviour thats depressing you, or is something you just cant put your finger on? Do feel for you so you've probably heard a million times but I hope you feel semi-human soon! Chin up, lippy on and take a deep breath.

Hamlyn and new boots im doing a lot better thankyou, im usually a great lover of straight talking but sometimes people dont realise that the smallest things can push you over the edge!
Kylah im one of the few non-mums here, i do shift work and on my days off i look after my nephew so his mum can work, so i am unable to respond to your PND questions!!

hey Buttercup, how you feeling?

Im feeling "ok", i feel a bit of a prat but a year ago today i took my last overdose and im not sure what to think or feel, sounds strange i know How are you doing?

Im fine thanks {{hugs}} Well, been a whole year though Thats good.