Why do I do this?

[jayho]

I can't do things for me. It's hard to explain, a current example, I need a new passport, i want to take my children away on holiday during the summer, no objection from their father, I have all the forms, I can't filll them in. I regularly miss deadlines to pay bills and have to pay penalties. I'm a single parent but work full time and earn a decent salary, I can afford all my out goings.

I know this is a psychological block but don't understand it.

Any comment/advice would be gratefully received because I need to break this cycle. I feel genuinely disabled to do stuf until it hits crisis point and need to understand why.

thanks

Well done on that progress jayho.

I still find this difficult - giving myself the same priority as I would, say, doing something for DS or for work.

Something that works for me (when I do it!) is to think of 5 nice things I'm going to do for myself this week, and then doing them.