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Please tell me happy antidepressant stories

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BluBurd · 08/03/2014 11:17

I am having a really hard day. I honestly feel completely and utterly hopeless and heartbroken.

I'd really love to hear some positive stories about antidepressants. I'm on sertraline, just about to increase to 100mg today and I am desperate to believe they are going to help me.

I'd love to know what it felt like when they really kicked in. I can't have therapy yet as I am too unstable, so basically I am existing for the meds to work.

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LastingLight · 08/03/2014 12:31

Hey BluBurd. I'm sorry to hear things are so hard at the moment. ((HUGS)) Sertraline made a big positive difference to me, unfortunately I cannot remember how long it took or what my dosage was as it was years ago. What day are you on now, around 8? It is too early to start worrying that it's not going to work, you will just have to hang in there and wait. Hopefully the higher dose will make a difference.

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BluBurd · 08/03/2014 12:33

Thanks LastingLight, I'm really struggling today, fighting back tears constantly and grieving for my old life.

I have been on the 50mg of sertraline for 12 days now. I'm so scared of the dose increase. My mental state is so fragile, I don't know if I could handle the same side effects I had when I started :(

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WomanScorned · 08/03/2014 12:39

Hi,
Sorry you're feeling so crappy.
Sertraline has changed my life - seriously.
I started on 50, then increased to 100, then 150. I didn't get the same side effects when I increased, as I did when I first started taking them, ie, the heavy limbs, dizziness and lethargy.
I'm not sure I can pinpoint when they started working, but I realised they were, after only 2-3 weeks.
My friend also takes them. Twice, she has run out and not taking them for 4-5 days and it was noticeable almost instantly.
Bear with them - I really hope they help you as they have helped me.

LastingLight · 08/03/2014 13:06

Don't be scared of the higher dose. I've been on many different ad's and I've very rarely had bad side effects because of dosage increases.

PublicEnemyNumeroUno · 08/03/2014 18:55

Hi :)

I have been on 100mg Sertraline for about 4 or 5 months now, and in all honesty i have never felt as happy and positive in all my life. I actually feel on top of the world, nothing bothers me anymore, i wake up actually looking forward to my day.

Things will get better x

ShoeWhore · 08/03/2014 18:59

Sorry to hear things are so tough Blu

It worked brilliantly for me. I started feeling noticeably better about 2-3 weeks in and then kept gradually improving for a few weeks more.

Hang on in there Blu it will get better.

Would it help to talk to us more about how you're feeling today?

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BluBurd · 08/03/2014 19:07

Thank you for the stories, I am due to take the 100mg tonight and really trying to be brave.

Shoewhore, I just want to get out of this nightmare. I am barely functioning, only to look after the kids when they need me too. Other than that I am constantly on my phone, searching the internet for answers,cures,help,anything. Or crying and crying because the way I am scares me and it feels like I won't get better.

I only really have my mum and my exhusband, but my mum is starting to get down too, because of me and I have to be careful with my exhusband to not lead him on. I have to move in two weeks too. I need to be brave and take the new dose. I don't know what I will do if the tablets don't work for me :(

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DioneTheDiabolist · 08/03/2014 19:41

Hi Blu, I was on antiDepressant medication when I was in my early 20s. I think they took about 6 weeks to work, but once they did the result was clear. I felt like someone pulled my head out of the water.

Instead of feeling like I was drowning, I could see clearly for the first time in ages. They gave me headspace and the clarity to see what environmental factors were having an impact and change them. I really felt that I could breathe and see again. I made some changes and came off them a few months later.

I hope that your antidepressants start helping soon.

anchories · 08/03/2014 20:07

Can I ask what your environmental factors were Dione?

DioneTheDiabolist · 08/03/2014 20:55

My main environmental factor was my job Anchories. I had loved it but following sexual harassment (me and a collegue complained, our complaint was upheld) I found myself in a situation whereby I was the target of a vendetta by my harasser's friends.

It was all low level stuff, but had a cumulative effect on my MH. The headspace granted by the antiDs made me realise that although I loved my job, my workplace was a source of deep unhappiness for me.

Does that make sense?

anchories · 08/03/2014 21:06

Yes, lots of sense!
I too was on them like you for a short time. Nothing like for your reason. When I took them, I was not sure that they ever did any good, but what they did give me was hope.
And I found that the hope was vital.

DioneTheDiabolist · 08/03/2014 21:20

If they gave you hope, then they did their job.. When depression hits, it's like a fog that prevents you seeing where you are, what's happening and how to get out. It impacts every part of your life.

My antiDs gave me clarity, yours gave you hope. I think the most important thing is that they give you the realization that life doesn't have to be as awful as it feels when depressed.

anchories · 08/03/2014 21:30

BluBurd. Have you any idea why it is happening or what may have started or triggered it?

omletta · 08/03/2014 21:33

Sertraline, for me, is a wonder drug. I'm six weeks in and feel soooo much better. I can't describe it other than to say I am no longer cross, angry or shouty.
Stick with it.

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BluBurd · 08/03/2014 21:45

I know what brought it to crisis point. I had a hard year last year. A cancer scare, pneumonia which reoccurred, I cut my wrist open in December and was in a psychologically abusive relationship for seven months. I was working full time 6 days a week and trying to manage four children. In January, I was talked into trying some legal highs at a house party. I was with my now ex partner and had no experience of that sort of thing but him and his friends did. I had a terrible experience, believed I was about to die.

I had no idea I was being psychologically abused, my family, crisis team, police and friends have eventually got me to see things the way they were. I had to report him for harassment at the weekend unfortunately.

So the crisis team opinion is that I was already anxious and depressed before the house party but that brought things to a head. They also believe I have some trauma from the experience. They also believe I am grieving for the relationship, as awful as it was. And that there may be some trauma from the cancer scare last year.

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EBearhug · 08/03/2014 21:47

Antidepressants took a bit of time to kick in with me - a month or so, with a couple of dosage increases - but once I'd got a dose that was taking effect, I felt like things were going to be okay, that I could smile at the sun and the flowers and I felt that I was making some forward progress, even if it was slow. There are still occasional bad days, but as long as you're making more forward steps than backward steps, then the overall progress is still forwards.

MooMaid · 08/03/2014 21:56

Hiya - first off HUGS!

Secondly, I was on sertraline for just over a year and I resented even having to go on them BUT it was the best thing I ever did and really helped me.

However, it took about a month to really kick in and I did have some crap side effects but I persevered because slowly, each day seems just a tad more manageable. Don't get me wrong, I had days where I stopped taking them because "I knew better" and didn't see why they were ruling me..... I soon saw the light and got back on them. Cold turkey was no joke!

I started on 50mg, went to 100mg, 150mg, back down to 100mg (thought I was ready), back up to 150mg and then, work shat on me from a great height - 200mg. However, I eventually started coming back down (over a long period of time) and I'm not even on them now!!

But you know what, they really did work for me and I needed them to help me out. 12 days is only a little time, it might seem ages but your body needs to build up a good supply. And, if they don't work don't despair - easy to say I know but all the other people I know on AD's (3) are on citilopram, not sertraline. There are alternatives but honestly, just take a day at a time xxx

MooMaid · 08/03/2014 21:57

actually I've just worked it out and I was on them for more like 18m/2y - wow time flies.....

You can do it!

anchories · 08/03/2014 22:34

That is some list.
I suppose the good news that can be gained from that, is that, with time, and being easy on yourself, much of that list is recoverable from.

DioneTheDiabolist · 08/03/2014 22:57

Anchories is right. Give the medication time and be kind to yourself. You have come through so much in such a short period of time, is it any wonder your head is fried.

Have you been offered any talking therapy BluBurd?

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BluBurd · 09/03/2014 08:00

I'm struggling today again :( I was brave and I took the 100mg last night. I didn't sleep great, woke every hour but did go back to sleep.

This morning I am back to being shaky, pale, hot and anxiety is really high. I'm actually scared to get out of bed today. I don't want to end up in an anxious crying state, wanting to end my life again.

I am so desperate for these tablets to work. It's been two weeks, should there be some signs by now?

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LastingLight · 09/03/2014 11:16

BluBurd, for some people the first ad they try doesn't work. That's an unfortunate fact. However you need to persevere a bit longer because it can take several weeks for the meds to take effect. I do think you must give feedback to your doc so that they know what is going on and can support you. Just try and get through the day, 10 minutes at a time if you have to. Hang in there.

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BluBurd · 09/03/2014 15:06

Thanks LastingLight. I don't want to jinx it but I've actually had an okay day. I cleaned the bathroom, washed the dishes, hoovered and put clothes away. I even had a shower. All of that is more than I have done since I got ill. I also haven't had a crying fit today. Hoping this might be my first good day.

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LastingLight · 09/03/2014 16:18

Glad to hear that.

jojack17 · 09/03/2014 21:20

Hi bluBurd, I've been on sertraline for about 4 months...I didn't notice a positive effect until I'd been on them about 3 and a half weeks, and then gradually day by day I felt better and better, much lighter and just able to react normally to stuff instead of being wrapped up in my own miserable thoughts. For the last week I've been horrified to feel the old anxiety symptoms creeping back. I have a feeling I may need to up my dose as I'm only on 50 mg, and even though I'm not keen on that idea, I know it may be necessary and if the doc suggests it, I'll do it. Hang in there, the sertraline will do its job, give it a bit more time, and remember, this will pass! We will all get through this crap, doing whatever we need to do, it will pass xxxx

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