ok so have distracted myself all day with teying to potty train my DD & offer help & advice to another MN poster re benefits. Great accept night has started & so have my troubles.
Bit of background - suffer from severe depression with psychosis (hallucinations, voices), GAD and PTSD. On many heavy duty meds which wipe me the F* out. also have Fibro, joint problems, mechanical lower back problems & low vitD.
Im trying to come off one particular med which have caused me to gain an enormous amount of weight the only problem is now im having really bad symptoms! I cant bring myself to take the medication as the voices on my head are stopping me. i think i need to tell someone bit at the same time i dont want to cause i know they will make me take it. Stupid i know but i really cant deal with the weight gain! Ok this is sounding stupid even as i write it :(
Maybe i should ring the samaritans or something? no probably another stupid idea they got better things to do then deal with idioits like me. I should just take a zopiclone & try sleeping.
No need for replies people im just having a moment.