Lustral and seroxat didn't work. Was allerigic to Prozac - bad rash, bleeding/bruising on the palms of hands.
Dr has started me on citalopram for anxiety. I hate tablets (side effects, addiction), don't want to take them, but this is scaring the hell out of me. I feel so scared. Second day woke up 4am and threw up outside. Scared and alone as usual - husband has left for work. Third day, so panicked, needed to get away, drove to my mums, don't know how I got there, couldn't stand, couldn't talk, felt floppy. Third day onwards it felt like a pressure cooker in my head, so hot, felt it build then the steam release. It worked its way all round body. Sleep getting harder. I could always get to sleep before, but know jerking awake.
I'm walking around the garden at 3am smoking and drinking coffee. I don't know what to do. Keep going back to doctors and chemists.. She say keep taking it, increase dose to 2 tablets on second week. I can't feel my hands or feet. I'm walking but they feel numb. Now my smell has gone funny. My mum cooked a chicken casserole. When she brought the veg at the supermarket the freezer was broke and it smelt slightly funny in the shop. But now my whole house smells like somethings has died in it. Its a rotten horrible smell. It doesn't smell like veg, it just smells like death. The smell of cigaretes on my breathe isn't right either. Its horrible. Rang nhs direct. They said its just the tablets working. Is this normal.