Never felt so alone

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Bear with me - currently in tears

Have depression - have lost friends and OH. Feel like no one cares or wants to know me any more as I'm mentally ill

Yes, I agree with Kizzies list.

I got a colour your own advent calendar last year to help manage my anxiety.

Fresh air is always important in my recoveries, when it is cold I think about the cold scouring the depression away, when rainy I think about it washing it away. When sunny I think about it giving me energy.

I was recommended mood gym online to help. Sorry cant link on this.

Save, there is a mh thread in chat at the mo which might be of interest to you, beginning of title is Cba to name change...

sitting here on mn crying too. you are not alone. ive got 4 days till next counselling session and i feel like topping myself right now. only EVER hold on cos of DC.

and OP. you DO find out who your freinds are with depression.

i have 2. proper friends.

i used to know many but 2 friends in the whole world but even they cant help.

just want to make like a tortoise and hide in my shell. savewater like you in bed under the duvet.

you are not alone.

You can come back from depression. I promise.

Save, just a reminder that you are not alone again today. X

Thank you all so much - it means lot.

Thank you all so much - it means lot.

I want people to understand how I feel and why I can't deal with certain situations

I think the previous idea of writing it down is a good thought and will help you put across what you need to your gp.

If you have had self harm urges or suicidal thoughts you must tell gp.

Really sorry have no more practical advice except I know you can get through this tough time. And I am thinking of you.

Have managed to get GP appointment but not for another 9 days

thinking of you x Is

So many people care about you here. You are not alone.

9 days, you can get through 9 days.

Don't forget to breathe and be kind to yourself. Are you writing things down? Can you tempt yourself to eat a treat? Sorry to nag.

Have you managed to go outside? Sunny here this morning, we went to a farm to cuddle lambs. X

Sorry I haven't been back - it's been a good weekend

Hello Saved! I have been checking back for you. Very pleased to hear that you have had a good weekend. What have you enjoyed?

I had a great day yesterday, lamb cuddling. Today was a bit odd, helping a friend sort some stuff as she has recently left her husband. Then a food shop followed by drawing and cutting out fairies (badly!) for my daughter to stick into her novel. She is 6. She has written 1 sentence, which covered an entire page.

I have been on hol this week. Back to work tomorrow I might not be able to check everyday. Job is quite demanding. Draining.

Been shopping with a close friend - huge step!
Met my snuggly newborn niece today

Off to London today and tomorrow.