But at the same time I was going to name change but I don't want to because I want to be able to find this again if I need to in the future and because (on the back of the PND thread even though this isn't PND) I have nothing to be ashamed of.
If any of you recognise me in my previous names please don't out me on this thread.
I am going to ring the doctor and get an emergency appointment and see if they can give me antidepressants or something to help I am crying I can't stop I'm stressed I'm not sleeping and my DP told me last night I am over thinking everything and tying myself in knots and could I please go and do something
So I came home in a strop with him and in tears but he's right.
My ex is a head wreck and very difficult to deal with.
I'm a single parent.
I work part time and go to uni full time.
I am having gynae issues and bleeding out every month for 2 or 3 days to the point where I last an hour before I'm soaked through.
I'm so tired just so so tired and I can't sleep
I have a bad shoulder and it hurts all the time it's the hand/arm I use the most and I have to do tons of typing and sitting at the computer for uni and driving and it hurts and I am swallowing ibuprofen every day and they aren't helping
So I am going to ring the doctor this morning and get an emergency appointment and tell them how bad I feel.
I'm scared. Stupid stupid stupid scared.