Have a really strong urge to go and burn myself

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really really stressful weekend. Anxiety levels really high. When I've burnt myself accidentally the feeling of relief and calm I get is imense. Lying on my bed. Dh down stairs with dc. I really really want to do it.

Sorry I know I'm a total freak.

Nope, your not - I've burnt myself before now, it takes too long to heal and is very prone to infection - and it hurts... a lot

If you havn't self harmed before beware it is VERY addictive, I personally don't think it makes you any stranger than someone who wants to go out and get so drunk they throw up everywhere, which seems to be totally socially acceptable - but that is not a healthy coping mechanism nor good for you either.

Try grabbing some ice out of the freezer putting it in a bag and holding it, you could try an elastic band snapping around your wrist, but that was not helpful for me.

Don't do it your in the best place I've spent the majority of the last few weeks lying on my bed, find it destresses me being on my own.

Dragged my sorry arse out today but think I overdid it a bit.