Following on from last weeks thread things have not improved.
Me and dh had a lovely night away and I really appreciated eating a meal in peace, having a drink together and talking, laughing all night at the comedian and then falling asleep without the added worry of being woken up in 2 hours 
However have been back almost a week now and still feel no better.
Am terrified of going to the GP, dont want to have PND on my records in case it affects job prospects in future, I also dont want to end up like friends on AD's for the next 5 years 
But I know all is not well and I cant shake it, I am not training (normally do about 4 times a week), seem to have lost my fight, am a proper northern girl who doesnt suffer fools and now would rather walk away from an argument because Im tired and emotional, I could cry on demand.
I feel so very guilty about ds2's birth, I wish Id never had a CS, feel like everything that happened is my fault, am upset that me and ds2 dont have as many baby pics together as with ds1.
My PTSD counsellor says that anniversaries are hard (ds2 will be one on 27th) and that a resurgence of some symptoms is normal, but I feel like its different to the PTSD (although that is getting worse again too).
Please give me some advice, I dont know what to do, this just isnt me