I feel the absolute worst I’ve ever felt.
All my support networks and coping strategies are gone because of this stupid virus.
I’ve also realised how few friends I have too. My family don’t give a shit about me either.
I told my mum I felt suicidal and I got a message back saying how I would be selfish leaving my son without a mother.
They only ever want to see him, they’re not bothered about me.
One of the things I really wanted to do was to join a choir, but due to it apparently being a high risk activity, there aren’t any around anymore.
I also had/have PND.
I do feel suicidal, I feel like I have no one and nobody to turn to. I do have my partner and son, but I feel detached from them. I hate my house, I hate where I live, I regret so many things.
I had a mental health peer support group that I went to regularly, because it’s face to face it can no longer run.
This isn’t living to me, I feel like I’m simply existing. This is no life. I hate it and I hate myself.