I desperately want to go see my mum. She got quite unwell just before lockdown and I had plans to go visit the week before but I cancelled them when we were told not to make any unnecessary journeys. She's getting steadily worse and is refusing all medical treatment. She won't even have scans done to get an official diagnosis but doctors have suggested cancer. On top of and probably as a result of all this, she is really depressed and I think she has just accepted that she wants to die. I really want to see her! I can't bare the thought of not seeing her if the worst should happen. She told my sister today how she hated the idea that she wouldn't see me and my wee boy and it's breaking my heart. My sister is going to get her set up so we can FaceTime but it's not the same. She's 4.5 hours away and I really can't go can I?