Anyone else in working in the health service having a massive panic about going back to work?

[divafever99]

I know there are thousands of us in the same boat, but I'm due to return to work (nurse) tomorrow after a couple of days off and feel terrified. DH works in the NHS so is also working. DC will be in school, as our usual option for childcare is grandparents, and really don't want to put them at risk. Feel terrible for leaving them all day and putting them at risk. Also have now been redeployed to inpatient care when I've been community for the past 16 years. Feel well out of my depth. Is anyone else in a similar situation? How are you coping with it all?

I'm a hospital Social worker and feel exactly the same , have 12 month DD also and I'm terrified of picking something up from the hospital. Thank god I'm only part time.x

Yep!
I've had week and half off due to illness.? Corona symptoms.
Back tomorrow and slightly having a panic attack about it.
I work in endoscopy outpatients, but worried I'll get moved to the wards.
I've never worked on a ward in the 3.5years I've been qualified.

Dreading it!

Yes thank goodness I am only part time too, but just feel like I want to hand my notice in and never go out again!

Yes !!! I work in mental health outpatients
Dreading this week, fearful of where I will be redeployed to ......
Very envious of people able to work from home !!

OP, I am sorry it feels so frightening, both going to work and sending your child to school. I get it. For what it's worth, if your child's school is anything like mine, teachers will be implementing strict hygiene and distancing measures to minimise risk of infection

I'm working tomorrow in school. I'm scared. I absolutely take my hat off to any front line nhs staff. You are all amazing.

I'm not in the nhs or unfortunately on the list of places he wants to close however my job is close contact for more than 15 minutes easily

I feel like a sitting duck and really want him to update the list as I'm actually scared about going in this week

In a tricky situation because neither is my role classed as a key worker role so it's abit of a nightmare

Thank you for the replies. WomanIsTaken that is reassuring thank you. I feel better knowing others have the same worries. I have tried talking to dh but he just thinks I'm over anxious.

I’m scared too, have just had a week off so I’m not sure what I’m going back too.
In addition my DH is on the list of people needing to be ‘shielded’ so once I’m back at work we can’t be in the same room as each other.

Hi, just wanted to reassure you that if your child's school is anything like mine it will be a nice calm end of term type day with only limited children in each classroom. We are looking at 15 per classroom with a teacher and ta, following all the hygiene regs we are used to doing. All the best with your shift x

I’m back in tomorrow after almost two weeks off and I’m petrified. I am a nurse on a surgical ward but I’ve got no idea what I am going to be walking in to. I think having been off is making it worse. It’s nice to have this thread because I’ve not been able to talk to anyone irl about it - my DH is convinced I will catch it and give it to him and earlier this week wanted me to just not ever go back to work and my DM is isolating as she is a very high risk and is petrified herself so I can’t talk to her about it as then she would be more worried.

Gahhhhhh I feel on the edge of needing to breathe into a paper bag and I know there are going to be tears tomorrow.

We’ll all have to report back tomorrow

Yes Dotty, similar situation here, when I tried to discuss with DH he just said i should hand my notice in! not sure loosing our home would help the situation! Thanks for the reassurance Barbie.

Yes will report back tomorrow. Think I will go to bed soon to stop me over thinking!!

diva my DH seemed to think I could just walk out now and then breeze back in to the same job when this is all over although he is a bit more rational about it now as we could do with keeping our home too!!

I work in the community and currently on 2 weeks self-isolation due to children being really unwell.
I'll be going back a week tomorrow and already dreading where I'll be sent to you.
Genuinely want to hand my notice in and stay safe at home.
Our irresponsible government is also making me wonder why should I risk mine and my children's lives when the government aren't doing all they can to protect the NHS?
Hugs to all fellow NHS staff and teachers, this really is a shit situation.

I'm also a nurse in the community and dreading it. We are being sent back to the hospital and I feel slightly panicked by it if I'm honest. Not worked on a ward for 7 years.

I don't really want to put my DC's into school/nursery either tbh. I have big guilt around that one. We've stayed home and now I'm plonking them in to all sorts.

I've not been able to sleep the last few nights and felt anxious all day at the thought of all these unwell patients and lack of PPE. My trust has run out of hand gel already. A&E can be like a war zone sometimes anyway so god knows what it's going to be like.

I’m expecting to be sent to ward, I haven’t been on a ward since I was a
Student nurse in 1996 !!!!! We’ve not had hand gel for over a week,
No chance of social distancing on a mental health ward ... yes let’s report back tomorrow ...

I think seeing photos on Facebook of families out and about "enjoying the sun" today has wound me up even more. We are expected to risk our own and families lives while people who could quite easily isolate at home are treating it like a bank holiday. As for PPE, ours hadn't arrived at work last week, and hand gel was running low. It's concerning to hear that this is happening in other areas too. Will be thinking of you all tomorrow

I'm the same as others I trained as a children's nurse and haven't been on a children's ward since 2005 as a 3rd year student.
I then went straight into community.
I'm really not sure where I would be best placed.
I also don't want to send my children to a random school with unknown teachers and pupils. My children have sensory issues and don't cope well with change.
I just wish everything could all go back to normal.

Just checking in to see how everyone is. I still feel completely overwhelmed at work. On a positive note dc were fine in school, only 10 pupils and 2 teachers. They had a great day doing "no work"

to everyone. I’m in isolation but waiting to hear where to go at the end of the week. I’m equally terrified and furious. I’m burned out already and this will destroy my mental health. It feels like the crowning glorying all the years of the government treating us like crap because they can. It’s not that I don’t care but I didn’t sign up be cannon fodder.

I'm on leave this week (been told to keep it as it may not be possible soon). Can't stand feeling impotent. Want to get stuck in with my colleagues now rather than sit about waiting. I wish I could move out and DH could just stay in and keep DD safe.

I'm MH so not at the sharp end as my general colleagues, my thoughts are with you guys.

I survived but it was one of the strangest days I’ve ever had at work it’s just a whole new world.

It feels like the calm before the storm as we plan for an onslaught.

My branch of NHS has been effectively shut down. We are to see emergencies only and will work on a rota. Isolating from each other so if one gets ill there is another clinician who can work. Very high risk for transmission so not too unhappy. I am self employed but have savings (tax savings account) I can live on. We will be unable to draw on any financial assistance but be deployed to hospitals and be paid if we are happy to work.
I have been self isolating for 2 weeks due to symptoms in the household and was dreading going into work this week. Feeling much more relaxed now. We will have to wait for more info regarding redeployment.