This month, for the first time ever we (dh and I) have really given ourselves every chance possible of conceiving.
I've been using FAM for the first time. we've been BDing like crazy at the right time and I'm so hopeful whilst being so scared of having those hopes dashed. (i do know btw that even if we get it all right there is still only 1 in 4 chance etc).
As background: after ds was born in 2003, dh didn't want any more children. We struggled (well, I did) with this and the terrible conflict that ensued until last year.
We've been nominally trying since then, but tbh, not very hard (i.e. of 12 months, there were probably only 3 that we could have possibly conceived in).
Since the beginning of this year, dh really has changed his mind and now really really wants us to have another child. I got pregnant, but miscarried at the end of March.
First cycle I wasn't expecting to have my period 28 days (on the dot) after the miscarriage which I did.
I was absolutely miserable when I wasn't pregnant second cycle.
Now third cycle CD15. Today I found out a friend was pregnant at the same time as me, we both had a November due date. I'm so sad that we aren't having babies together and so sad for the baby that I lost.
A tarot card reader has also told me (this was a very amateur tarot reader...i know i know i know i know!!!) that no babies any time soon.
I so want to be pregnant this month and would be so grateful for your support, hand holding and prayers, vibes and lentils both in the hope of being and if I get my AF which is due on the 16th July.
I'm 37 years old and need to hold onto the fact that once we started trying properly I got pregnant fairly easily rather than letting the fact that at 37 i am decrepit with no eggs left and dh has deformed sperm be at the forefront as that is what it feels like i'm bombarded with all day every day in the press!
Any company gratefully appreciated...